I've really never have kept a journal so doing all this writing and JOTTING OF IDEAS OR THOUGHT stuff down; revealing my personal side to a freaking computer is much harder than i thought it was gonna be and something i dont practice even in life that well around others.Seems i always keep a barrier between me and others so all this STUFF is going to be very NEW for me.
With so little time in my troubled life i doubt I'll even be that committed to keeping it updated all the time

and why am i writing in Orange?
So Halloween.
well thats about all the writing i'm doing my brother is being a dick and wants me to leave out his house so he can work.

 this is so stupid........
somebody please just throw me a hammer over here so i can beat myself over the head with it
i think im having an early menopause breakdown!!!??? YIPES

HOW CAN this BBBBBBBBBBBB???